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Warrant Officer (Ret’d) Kevin ‘Sammy’ Sampson

Warrant Officer (Ret’d) Kevin ‘Sammy’ Sampson
Sammy Sampson joined the Canadian Forces in 1987. In 1988, he deployed on the Iranian border as a Signal Corps Radio Operator in an isolated observation post, at 18 years old. By the time he retired, Sammy had served 21 years and completed seven tours of duty in front line units overseas including Iran, Kuwait, Rwanda, Haiti, Central Africa, Bosnia, and Afghanistan. After re-mustering to the Engineers in 1999, Sammy served almost 10 years as a Geospatial Technician (retiring as a Warrant Officer), working within the highly classified NDCC 2; working a 3-year secondment to NATO Intelligence in Italy; and supporting all Tier 1 and Tier 2 Special Forces units in Southern Afghanistan in 2002. Since his time in Rwanda, Sampson has lived with post-traumatic stress disorder from the horrors he witnessed there. Having retired from the military, Sampson is currently the vice-president of the Rwanda Veterans Association of Canada, working to bring Veterans together for wellness, commemoration, and camaraderie. “We want to provide better outcomes for a special group of Veterans,” Sampson says, “and to give help to those who need it.”

Videos

Learning how to forgive myself
Taking the first step and asking for help
I’ve had to reframe the way I think about my injury
I had to mourn the loss of the person I was
I’m proud of my PTSD but I disagree with labels
I see my trauma as a brain injury, not as a mental health issue
Trying to find hope and to be a good person
When I became a father I realized I needed help
Dealing with shame and guilt
Simple triggers would sideline me
Returning from trauma: 25 years ago there was no understanding or support
We were not fighting in Rwanda but the rates of PTSD and complex PTSD were extreme
A standard reaction is to isolate yourself
PTSD is PTSD
Even while sleeping we constantly had to be on guard
I had many coping strategies
I suppressed the trauma of Rwanda for 18 years
A Rwandan orphan was named after me
As a Canadian in the military I often tried not to judge a different system of government
I wanted to do the job in Rwanda, at whatever cost to myself
Thinking of the children in Rwanda I couldn’t help took me to a dark place
Nobody talked about Rwanda for many reasons
What our Padre had to witness
Walking through a children’s trauma ward in Rwanda
Moments of guilt that stay with me
A traumatic event that I will always live with
Every day in Rwanda felt like a failure
We couldn’t help people
Choosing which child might live and which child might die
Staying busy on tour kept me from thinking about Rwanda
The grotesque evil of Rwanda
Isolation, daily challenges and trauma in Iran
Figuring out coping strategies
Be kind to yourself
I don’t have anger issues, I have communication issues
I didn’t want to be the “army guy” any more
Learning how to be a civilian
My first mission introduced me to some harsh realities
After Rwanda I no longer believed in God